Tuesday, February 24
Read Exodus 17:1-7
So Moses cried out to the Lord, “What shall I do with this people? They are almost ready to stone me.” The Lord said to Moses, “Go on ahead of the people, and take some of the elders of Israel with you.… Strike the rock, and water will come out of it, so that the people may drink.” (vv 4-6)
WEARY NO MORE
A year ago I was weary. My health was fine. I had the best job in the best agency with the best people. But I was weary. I was past retirement age, but I wanted to work longer for various reasons: I loved my job; I enjoyed working; we needed the security of my income.
Honestly, it was probably the last reason that was keeping me at my job. I was worried for the future. I kept bumping into the verses from Luke 12, where Jesus tells his disciples that they should not worry about their life, what they will eat, drink or wear — or where they will live. “Instead, strive for his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.”
As my weariness continued with no relief, I talked to my husband about that word I thought I would never say — retirement. He assured me we would be fine. I talked to God about his plans for my life. God assured me we would be fine. God had work for me!
I retired. And a smile came onto my face that I cannot explain. Gradually, my weariness ceased. I was content, but that was not enough.
As a young woman, I began my professional career teaching English in a middle school. I loved teaching and being with this age group. Now, in my retirement, I went to my Rock and asked God to guide me. Doors started opening and I found myself in a middle school tutoring room.
That word I never thought would be me — retirement — was opening new opportunities for me. I was available to go back to what initially gave me hope and joy. It seems to be working for the students as well. We have fun; we learn; we play; we share. And they know I care for each of them. I was quite surprised when a group of girls giggling about “old” people were astonished when I told them my past-retirement age and they said that surely I was only in my 40s! Retirement is giving years back to me so I can continue to do what God would have me do.
Living in this world and continuing to be concerned about a future without my income, we have what we need and more. When God says to Moses in Exodus 17, “Strike the rock, and water will come out of it, so that the people may drink,” I understand. I just keep that rock in sight and in mind; I do what God would have me do. And I truly find that “Jesus is a rock in a weary land.”
[Yesterday | Lenten Index | Tomorrow]