Tuesday, March 17
Read Psalm 18:1-6
The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my deliverer, my God, my rock in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold. (v 2)
The Lord is my rock every day, but some days I lean more heavily on him as I try to comprehend why my brother decided to end his life here on earth 11 years ago.
Over the years, I have struggled with a wide range of emotions, from grief to anger, to sadness, to why didn’t he call me, to what could I have done or said to stop him, to guilt, to regret that he isn’t seeing his kids grow into wonderful people, to continuous loss.
Through it all, God has been by my side, giving me strength and courage to navigate the days and nights. He has given me a strong family, people who know what I am going through and support me. He has given me a wonderful church family and friends that are there whenever I need them. He has also given me the hope that one day I will see my brother again in heaven.
We are all sinners and make mistakes, but I believe that God, my rock and refuge, is a forgiving God. I pray that when my brother needed God the most, his prayer was answered, and God was my brother’s refuge that fateful day.
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